My first exam in the hardest class has been graded and I failed. I failed it even after the curve. I am a bit numb about it. I knew I did poorly, but wow, that was a bad grade!
I am allowing myself a little time tonight to reflect and go through the emotions that is normal to go through for failure then I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off, and move on. After all, there is nothing I can do about it now, is there?
Since I am really an optimistic person at heart, I refuse to let this get me down. It just means I needs to re-prioritize my life a bit. Obviously I have not put school high enough on the list of priorities and if I still plan on continuing on with grad school, I must do so. Yes, the thought has crossed my mind to quit school...this was thought before the exam too. This means that I have to revamp my whole life and really make cuts in areas that I previously did not cut. Things that I normally may think are super important may need to be moved to the slightly important list in my brain. Things that I do not find important, but enjoy, may need to be forgotten about until after each semester. Not ALL things though! What a really crazy person I would be then if I did not have at least some pleasure in life!
This also means I need to pray. I need to get my rear end back in church! Of course this weekend I am unable to attend due to work, but I need to be listening to the podcasts on the weeks I cannot attend. I need to break out my Bible and start reading.
I need to create a time schedule for things and stick to it.
I think I will still keep the blog, even though no one reads it but me! It is like a release for me. A way to organize my thoughts in a sort of way.
I also need to end this post and get started on what I just typed about! Have a great night all! Until next time...